INCOMPLETE yet trying to be HAPPY

           Why is that, i wrote that title ? Umm.. probably that's how i felt deep inside my heart.. oh ! I am pretty sure i guess, but its not just obvious to me that i am having that certain kind of feeling at my age now.. yeah, i guess you'll say i'm too young to talk something about a SERiOUS LiFE would be.. but then growing up w/ a broken family leads me on thinking too seriously in such matter. I don't able to experience life with a wonderful, complete members of a family. I used to it, at an early age i grew up having no dad by my side, he'd like to spend time w/ me & my siblings few months after they were separated .. i just thought it would never end, that things won't changed into worst. But my mistake of having that thought on my mind, cause its not.. and will not gonna happen. They build there own FAMiLY, yes they have their own. Supposedly, it was not meant to happen that early but time is too fast running .. i just realized that their growing too fast as a family. They even doubled the numbers.. haha^__^ too funny. Honestly, i got to envy them for being that intact, i am longing for a DAD but it seems Life can be unfair sometimes, that HE will not give all the things that u would wanted. 11 years now, as being in this situation, i have learned so many things about the FAMiLY issue that really happens for real.. 


            I would love to have a COMPLETE HAPPY FAMiLY, as anyone would have. I am not into a big house, a luxury car , lots of money not even being a famous to others but just having a SiMPLE CONTENTED GOD-FEARiNG FAMily is enough. My DREAM FAMiLY.  I can't achieved it anymore .. i know.. with my MOM & BROTHER ,they all have left for me.. no DAD. Can u call it COMPLETE ? Of course not. I accepted it w/ all my heart. GOD has better reason for it..


             Now, having my own Life, away from my them, is not that easy. Yes, i am happy to be with my soon to be HUSBAND & the MAN of my Life -- JAYSON KOBAYAKAWA. With him, were planning to build our own family this time soon.. i knew that i had mentioned my complication of bearing a child, not that easy for me but in GOD's will i know it will happen. I am that eager to pursue my greatest dream ..